I Must Admit

 That all I want to do is sit around right now.

Lately I’ve been feeling pretty burned out.  I’m not sure what it is, but I don’t’ really feel like doing anything at all.  Sure, my real job has been sucking the life outta me for a while now, but I’m not sure if that’s the only thing.  I haven’t even felt like riding much either.

What?

Yeah, you heard me.

It rained a lot here lately and the temps turned a bit colder, but I think I had this feeling long before that.  I had fun at the kids ride and all that, and it puzzles me why I can’t seem to want to get out and ride on my own.  Is it because I’m tired of the single speed, maybe?

I really love riding with just one gear.  The challenge, the simplicity, the chance to act an elite prick because I’m not part of the mainstream (okay, I made that last one up.)  It’s definitely making me stronger and all that, but for some reason I still want to ride gears once in a while.  There’s nothing wrong with that, right?  Initially I thought about not replacing my geared frame and riding the SS full time, but I’ve changed my mind. Although I don’t have a geared bike built at the moment, I will have one eventually. 

I mean, really soon.

I’m not too excited to build another bike though.  In fact, I’m not too excited about much these days.  I haven’t even been drinking much beer, and that troubles me (I usually like beer, you know.)  I’m in some kind of funk, and I’m not sure I know how to shake it.  I’m not thinking about giving up bike or beers, but something’s gotta happen.

I just have no idea what it is.

Maybe building up a new bike will snap me out of this shit, or bring me down even more.  I know there are plenty of things I can do, but maybe I need a break from those “same ol’ things.”

Maybe I’ll be back tomorrow.

Maybe not.

Probably though, because I have nothing else to do with my mornings.

 

*Before you get all concerned and start e-mailing me or asking Little Miss Sunshine what’s wrong, I’m okay.  Just a little burned out.  Nothing serious.